may 31, 2002
the new metal
i've found that i really enjoy talking to people and encouraging and inspiring them to do what they really want.
but i don't want to be a counsellor.
in my life, i want to sing in a choir, have a beautiful garden and have a baby.
two of those things i'm going to be able to do in the next year. (no, i'm not planning on getting pregnant for a while yet. so stop sniggering.)
i want to belong to a strong real-time community with a space and a purpose, whether it be a community garden or an arts and music centre.
the life is a musical thing. that would be swell. but people are often shy about singing. so i may have to make do with just singing in a choir.
i want to make people smile. i want to help my friends realise their dreams.
i want to work out my dreams. and then i want to put them into action. and i want people to help me do that.
pipstar @ 02:35 AM | link | Comments:
may 31, 2002
inertia
someone called bdc left a great comment. it made me very happy and less discouraged about this whole blogging thing.
sometimes it feels just like you're writing about boring stuff to no-one. but soon, in about 68 days, i'm going to have so much stuff to write about! i just hope that i get enough internet access to be able to have a regular (and cool) travel journal.
:::...
i didn't completely wake up this morning.
and even though i only had a jaw xray, a group assignment meeting and bought 2nd hand books and random stuff today, i needed to take an epic nap in the afternoon.
i've managed to avoid very deep naps for at least a month.
i'm either getting depressed or not getting enough sleep.
:::...
superhappybunny - they make vibrator covers!
a job at southern records? Assistant to International and Label Management Departments, i could do that!
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may 30, 2002
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may 30, 2002
do-re-mi
Let's start at the very beginning
A very good place to start
When you read you begin with
A-B-C
When you sing you begin with do-re-mi
Do-re-mi
Do-re-mi
The first three notes just happen to be
Do-re-mi
Do-re-mi
Do-re-mi-fa-so-la-ti
Oh, let's see if I can make it easier
Doe, a deer, a female deer
Ray, a drop of golden sun
Me, a name I call myself
Far, a long long way to run
Sew, a needle pulling thread
La, a note to follow sew
Tea, I drink with jam and bread
That will bring us back to do...oh oh oh
Doe, a deer, a female deer
Ray, a drop of golden sun
Me, a name I call myself
Far, a long long way to run
Sew, a needle pulling thread
La, a note to follow sew
Tea, I drink with jam and bread
That will bring us back to Do
Doe, a deer, a female deer
Ray, a drop of golden sun
Me, a name I call myself
Far, a long long way to run
Sew, a needle pulling thread
La, a note to follow sew
Tea, I drink with jam and bread
That will bring us back to do
Do re mi fa so la ti do, so do
pipstar @ 03:57 AM | link | Comments:
may 30, 2002
the notes of dark birds
over the last few years i've been using a tarot site by corax the raven.
i have a certain affinity for ravens. i don't know why. but i also like the way this site approaches the tarot. it often acts as to challenge my thoughts on a particular situation.
pipstar @ 03:37 AM | link | Comments:
may 30, 2002
i like crossing things off lists
actually, i like writing the lists more. i think that it gives me a sense of purpose. realistically, i'd be much more productive if the crossing things off were the favoured activity.
but as promised, i have actually cleaned up my room.
i've moved furniture around, vacuumed pretty much everything vacuumable, thrown stuff out, organised the stuff under my bed (boxes of zines, chinese ink and brushes, candles). i found books which had slid down the side of my bed and also the ring from the lachmans.
my chest of drawers and desk have been moved around to more practical positions.
i realised that there should be more hooks on my walls, but then i also realised that i'm leaving the country for 7 months away in 2 months, so hung pictures would be a short lived pleasure.
i also had a dent in my car door made less denty (completely no dent and i'd have to repaint the door - a bit of a toss-up), spoke to nick. and gemma called and we had a big pre-zining talk.
i gave aidan another quick birthday call (i made one at 00.01 australian time - just to make his birthday longer). something, i'm not sure what, made both of the phone calls less exciting than usual. maybe aidan wasn't that eager (both times i called his mobile he was out and about, so he was probably a little busy), or maybe i've been busy enough in the last week to not make an international phone call the most exciting thing in my life.
we will see.
but i've discovered a new pleasure, organising a date to meet up with someone, in a completely different country!
i'm already meeting up in barcelona with aidan on august 20, but now i'm also meeting up with nick when he arrives in stockholm on december 28.!
diary entries of:
"hook up with aidan in barcelona" or "nick arrives in stockholm" are exactly ten million times better than, "doctor, 11.30 for vaccination">
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may 29, 2002
but before i log off...
a while ago i mentioned michael chabon's book for young adults... summerland. it's now available for pre-order at amazon.
and when i was at borders, mark showed me this... Julius Knipl, Real Estate Photographer : The Beauty Supply District.
pipstar @ 03:16 PM | link | Comments:
may 29, 2002
checklist
i'm not committing to any work. so i'm going to do a big clean and tidy of my room.
[aidan, karah, chris... stop laughing. i mean it.]
and i'm going to find odd socks. things for zining with gemma.
i'm going to vacuum, wipe down surfaces and throw away things.
and i'm going to listen to records and cds while i do it...
pipstar @ 03:10 PM | link | Comments:
may 29, 2002
overload
while browsing through borders with mark yesterday, i came to the conclusion (again) that there's too much stuff in the world to deal with.
too many books. too many pieces of music. too many people. too many places. too many films. too many websites.
and i want to look at all of them.
and i figure that i'm only going to get through about 0.001% of all the stuff in the world. [i wish that there was more time]
maybe you could just choose a section of the alphabet, or a specific year of production, or a theme (food for example).
i would be happy just reading kids books i think. i already love joan aiken, cs lewis, arthur ransome, roald dahl, susan cooper.
and then i could justify the purchase of The Very Persistent Gappers of Frip.
and i finally made up an amazon wishlist
pipstar @ 03:06 PM | link | Comments:
may 29, 2002
happy birthday aidan!
yep, aidan is now 23, and i suppose he's currently sleeping at the moment. it's also sair's boyfriend aidan's birthday too. (freaky huh?).
i still haven't finished putting together the package of birthday stuff for him. which means he's probably going to be getting his present while he's in paris.
double bitch! living in paris for a month and receiving a birthday package!
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may 28, 2002
the clouds
while i was driving home from work tonight, i saw one of the most beautiful cloud formations that i have ever laid eyes on.
there was a bank of dark gray clouds (stratus) at the bottom, and then this huge lighter gray cumulus cloud reached out of the stratus, way up high into the atmosphere.
the sun was casting a dark pink-orange as it set, which was hitting against the cloud, giving it these beautiful rose coloured edges.
i don't know how to describe this bit, but because the big cloud was blocking the sunlight, it meant that the pink light that hit it, was defined along one edge.
there was a triangle of pink against the gray of the sky.
.
i drove with most of my concentration on the cloud. in fact, i'm surprised that i didn't crash! but i was amazed to see that the people in the cars next to me had not noticed the clouds.
there was so much beauty in the sky. and people weren't looking at it.
why?
i wished that i had my camera with me in the car. but even if i hadn't taken it out of my backpack this morning, it wouldn't have been able capture the force with which light and tiny water particles were making the way into my head.
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may 27, 2002
insecurity
i think that i must be the worst tutor ever.
i can't find two of the assignments that i'm meant to mark, and four students haven't turned up for the practice exam.
this isn't good.
make that three students. one of them just turned up after having her car break down earlier.
that's a little better.
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may 27, 2002
excited
excitement, maybe it's just the same as anticipation?
despite the worrying that i've been doing, i am completely happy and excited about the decision that i've made to travel.
on thursday afternoon when i booked my ticket i felt like i had superpowers. there was a spring in my step and i felt (still feel) ready to through myself into any situation.
i do have this spring in my step feeling quite often. though i would describe it as more of an almost flying feeling. as if i could jump up a little bit and somersault and float over people.
pipstar @ 03:20 AM | link | Comments:
may 27, 2002
avoiding
i'm still dreaming and avoiding the tough boring things that i have to do.
stay tuned for procrastination in the weeks ahead...
pipstar @ 03:12 AM | link | Comments:
may 27, 2002
worried + anticipating
it seems that i am currently suspended, i'm waiting and ready to pack my bag and walk out of my room for the last time and to have one last hamster-style fight with my little bro.
in some ways i already feel like i've said goodbye and organised everything, because in my head i have.
and apart from the actual journey, my entire self is nervous at the thought of meeting up with aidan, it's like an extremely important first date. there will be so many expectations from both of us.
at times i feel like chickening out and calling off the whole trip, and more specifically the meeting in spain. and i get all cynical about love.
what happens if i lose all of the confidence i once had? when i was 17, when i was 19 - 21 i had this boundless confidence.
at 17 i'd walk down dark alleys in the middle of the night and smile at strange men while i walked to the nightmoves bus (what was i thinking!? at least nothing ever happened).
when i was 19 i had an intellectual confidence, i felt that i had the power to learn anything and when i was 20 and 21 i'd walk up to cute boys and ask them for their number without hesitation.
now, with the trifecta in shreds, i don't know what to do all the time.
while i'm trying to get to sleep i run out scenarios in my head.
i'm robbed. i'm ill. aidan and i can't stand each others guts. i hate travel and have to return home with my tail between my legs. i spend all my money in the first month and can't get a job. there are more terrorist attacks on america. customs think that the henna i'm carrying is class a narcotics (how do you say hairdye in croatian?). i end up spending $1000 getting from spain to turkey.
maybe i should chill out? but it's not that easy.
pipstar @ 03:10 AM | link | Comments:
may 27, 2002
touched
because of karah and her gossip,
pete k and his enthusiasm,
adam and a great chat and an amazing email,
nick (do i need a reason?),
aliese for her self,
jess for moods i can understand,
sarah for her smiles and laughs,
lue for assignment procrastination,
amanda for the bravery to go it alone,
gemma for zine intentions and passionfruit encouragement,
my family for supporting,
aidan for being thousands of mile away and still so close.
pipstar @ 02:43 AM | link | Comments:
may 27, 2002
drunk
a night spent with chris, tori, nick, adam, dan, will, alex, alex and ben? with drinking games? frangelico, vodka (in the form of russian cocaine), beer and wine?
did i mention that i walked ten metres outside the shack the next day and was then overcome by nausea?
and that i missed seeing the beach at port willunga because of the post-nausea vomit?
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may 27, 2002
screaming in my nightmares
it took me a while to fall asleep the other night.
in fact, it usually takes at least an hour before i fall asleep.
but the other day, just as i was falling asleep i though i could see someone (something?) evil moving through my room.
and i screamed and woke up.
but i wasn't sure whether i had screamed in my dream or in waking. which meant that i lay in bed worrying why no-one had woken up and come to save me.
the next day i was still quite shaky.
that's twice this month that i've suddenly woken up from a nightmare. and i can't remember doing that ever before this month. what's going on?
pipstar @ 02:30 AM | link | Comments:
may 27, 2002
bored
the majority of this year i've felt bored.
not doing anything is much easier when you have someone to share the feeling with.
i think that most of the boredom comes from not liking my job very much.
as i and all of my friends are in our early 20s, we're all beginning to have serious work, study and relationship commitments which means that they aren't on call to hang out all the time.
and specifically, the anticipation of travelling makes pretty much everything seem boring in contrast.
pipstar @ 02:16 AM | link | Comments:
may 27, 2002
busy but not doing anything
i have so many things to do before i leave this country for a minimum of seven months. but they are all big things that really don't get done all that well on saturdays or sundays.
for instance, i have the rest of the semester of desktop publishing to teach. and this weekend, that included the marking of the second assignment.
which i haven't done. that's really a boring monday morning job.
and i have to sell my car and organise some share accounts and do my tax return. but that is hanging out with my dad stuff, and i like to go up to dad's when my little brother is staying there. so i haven't been yet.
i think that i'm busy in my head at the moment.
pipstar @ 01:57 AM | link | Comments:
may 27, 2002
i keep making entries that
i keep making entries that are really just lists.
- lists of
- things i've done
- things i still have to do
- places that i'm going
- things that i've bought
and i can't seem to get back into the mode of writing about how i feel.
and if i do try to write, i write my feelings as a list
excited avoiding worried anticipating touched drunk screaming in my nightmares bored busy but not doing anything
pipstar @ 01:48 AM | link | Comments:
may 27, 2002
golden wallpaper
i think that my day would probably have been better if i hadn't chosen to watch the eurovision song contest vote tally.
however, i have been reading charlotte gray by sebastian faulks. at one point a seven year-old boy comes home to find that his parents have been removed from their home by the french police (working for the nazi occupation). i don't know what to say about that scene except that the moments leaving up to the boy's discovery just describe his anticipation at getting home from his errand and then his errand (the purchase of some eggs and candles) is completely forgotten. it made my chest hurt.
and i've done a little bit of the php scripting for the systems maintenance group assignment.
pipstar @ 01:43 AM | link | Comments:
may 25, 2002
get off your arse!
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may 25, 2002
a song for you
there's something about songs written by gram parsons which just scream out "sing along!"
so i'm singing along. songs about travel and trees and love.
it's all good.
pipstar @ 02:56 AM | link | Comments:
may 24, 2002
errata
I have just received some correspondence from a renowned amateur astrologer. Apparently the Big Butterfly constellation is now called Kelebek.
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may 24, 2002
.....
when i walked past groovelicious on tuesday i saw some action samplers in the window. and i walked inside to find super samplers and lomo kompakt automats.
so far i am safe. i haven't surrendered to these uncontrollable camera desires. i will be able to resist.
[i hope]
pipstar @ 03:04 AM | link | Comments:
may 24, 2002
close window (if you get jealous easily)
i finally booked my trip!
i leave on the 7th of august for london (via melbourne and singapore) and then i'll arrive in heathrow at 5.15 am where i wait for 2 hours before heading off to madrid!!!!
over the next month i'll meet up with aidan in barcelona, do spanish and maybe portuguese and moroccan stuff and then i will skedaddle over to turkey!
[adam, thanks so much for the lovely email and the amazing list of turkish delights. maybe i should spend much more than a month in turkey!]
and at some point, if i can tear myself away, i'll make my way up through bulgaria, romania and hungary to croatia. then... through slovenia and austria to slovakia and the czech republic, poland and estonia and finland and sweden and denmark and possibly germany.
at the moment i'm booked to fly out of stockholm. i think that i might change that to amsterdam...
and then...
from london on to bangkok. then probably vietnam as well as some bits of thailand.
and then (when i'm really tired... and extremely poor...)
through bangkok again to sydney and adelaide.
at the moment it looks like 7 months away. i think that i'll need to get some work while i'm away...
but it will be very much worth it!
pipstar @ 02:21 AM | link | Comments:
may 23, 2002
etc...
i've just got off the phone to aidan, and i'm now ready to go off to sta travel and book my ticket.
i'll leave this little city in this big, big country sometime between the 5th and the 9th of august i think. and i'll recover from jetlag, get acquainted to not hearing english spoken all the time and then roam around madrid for a week or so. then i'll probably meet up with aidan on the 19th or 20th in barcelona.
and maybe we will go to portugal or morocco. or maybe we'll just chill out in spain and go to la tomatina.
and hopefully meeting up with him again will be cool.
[it doesn't seem very far off. buying tickets and stuff like a big backpack, discman etc... i have to do my assignments and exams. mark the assignments and exams for the desktop publishing class. CLEAN and sell my car. pack up and tidy and clean my room so that parentals can use it as a spare room. visit melbourne and practice not spending money. say goodbye to so many people i love and who i'll wish i was sharing every moment with.]
it doesn't seem very far away at all.
pipstar @ 02:26 AM | link | Comments:
may 22, 2002
and i don't know how to put this into words
i've been thinking about compassion lately. empathy and such.
i want to write something about it. but i can't.
so maybe you might like to start off by reading the art of happiness.
pipstar @ 11:44 PM | link | Comments:
may 22, 2002
maps and pocketbooks
this morning i had a dream about riding my bike to uni. which was odd, since my bike is missing an integral nut and bolt (to hold the parcel tray and seat in place) and also because my uni campus is at mawson lakes.
which made me really tired before i even had done anything.
[summer has pictures of her new tattoo and lue's new live journal has posts about her dream tattoo]
and then i went up to uni for a not really on the ball ecommerce assignment meeting, played around with my design for the superdooper travel journal (pic above), picked up my hepatitis immunisation syringes (ooh injections... yuk!), bought some new pants (aren't i meant to be saving?), organised a doctor's appointment and rang up optus to find out how i'll be able to keep my mobile number while i'm away.
phew.
and then i went for a walk in lovely cool autumn weather.
pipstar @ 11:31 PM | link | Comments:
may 21, 2002
phwoom.
i am now passported to the extreme. today i received my australian passport, and with my uk passport already here, i am Miss Dual Citizenship 2002.
so, i'm going to the bank to get true awards organised, and then a visit to sta travel. a mini-flyer drop.
[the aussie dollar is going strong against the greenback. which means better euro conversion. goodo]
pipstar @ 03:48 PM | link | Comments:
may 21, 2002
kitten goes miaow
a fun, but at the same time kinda lazy weekend was had.
lots of wind and rain and beer and wine and russian cocaine (slices of lemon with sugar and coffee grounds, washed down with vodka shots) and funky young kids and a debauched house and sunshine today and windy walks and inventive astronomy and hearing stories of a magical place called butterfly valley
and new sensible but kinda funky black shoes for walking long distances and not looking like a complete heffalump while wearing a skirt. and a rough guide to spain. and computer books that i won't look at for another year.
and waking life with karah and james. we walked out because of boredom and sleepiness, ate chocolate brownies at karah's and james fell asleep (fifth-year surgery sounds very tiring) and karah and i gossiped and drank tea and started charting enormous plans for even greater world domination.
andandandandand...
- i have to
- cut up and deposit flyers for rock city tomorrow.
- make definite ticketbookingish plans so that i can actually leave the country.
- actually buy act of free choice by david bridie
- get my hair cut.
- and vacuum my car
- take some photos
- buy more aidan present stuff
- sleep
pipstar @ 01:21 AM | link | Comments:
may 20, 2002
a cup of pink tea
i've had a note written down in my journal for the last year and a half...
pink tea zine by keight berggman - get hold of it.
and today, through a link off someone, i found keight's site, uncapitalised.
very nice, so pretty.
pipstar @ 08:07 PM | link | Comments:
may 19, 2002
¡hola! ¡buenos días!
i've decided to learn a little bit of spanish before my travels start.
so, off to the wonderful bbc website...
and spanish steps.
pipstar @ 02:14 AM | link | Comments:
may 17, 2002
when in melbourne...
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may 17, 2002
the procrastination is almost over!
whoohoo! 1643 words done!
which just leaves Reliance on Network Logic and reordering and a conclusion / introduction type thing...
tomorrow morning.
flannelette sheets and sleep now.
pipstar @ 03:31 AM | link | Comments:
may 17, 2002
love detective
1366 words done... only 634 to go!
[found while looking for stuff about online communities] tom cosgrave is from ireland, runs dublinstories and has a nicely designed website.
[i was reminded of] 1000 journals, 20 things and nervous industries.
pipstar @ 03:01 AM | link | Comments:
may 17, 2002
felicity is not essential to life
921 words down.
check out brett there be rock's ramblings on the warped website. which is now being run by helen of hellcity [a website which is pretty in a tough way].
must
write
more
about
community...
pipstar @ 12:01 AM | link | Comments:
may 16, 2002
waiting for the muse to strike
i think that the muse might actually be on strike. i've finally written 881 words on online communities.
that means that there are only 1119 words to go. and more cups of tea. and more visits to the bathroom to make room for even more cups of tea.
if only i could write the essay on procrastination. "technoculture and its implications on the art of procrastination".
i want to write some lists, buy some presents, clean up my room, take some photos, go for a walk, read some magazines.
i'm not just procrastinating, i'm actively avoiding this assignment.
pipstar @ 11:34 PM | link | Comments:
may 16, 2002
free choice
whenever i procrastinate, i make a conscious decision. i know that i will end up doing the work at the last minute.
the problem is that today, i don't feel like doing my work at the last minute. i wish that lue and i had sensibly chosen something fun to write our exploring technoculture assignment on. something like anime. or electronic music (cd purchase justification) or avatars or changing identity (which we could somehow use to justify lots of "which character of <insert tv show here > are you?" quizzes.
:::...
- i've swept fallen leaves off the top of the pool
- i emailed a friend some inspirational links
- i got out the dyson and vacuumed spider webs from the side of the fireplace
- i've drunk about a million cups of tea (currently monk's pear tea from T2
pipstar @ 05:16 PM | link | Comments:
may 15, 2002
procrastination #2
Your Existing Situation
Volatile and outgoing. Needs to feel that events are developing along desired lines, otherwise irritation can lead to changeability or superficial activities.
Your Stress Sources
The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.
Feels rather isolated and alone, but is too reserved to allow herself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.
Feels that things stand in her way, that circumstances are forcing her to compromise and forgo some pleasures for the time being.
Your Desired Objective
Seeks freedom from problems and a secure state of physical ease in which to relax and recover.
Your Actual Problem
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to escape from this into a stable and secure environment in which she can relax and recover, free from any further demands on him.
pipstar @ 10:55 PM | link | Comments:
may 15, 2002
i don't know what's happening
i don't know what's happening to me, but i really enjoy the new eminem song. it's catchy. like chicken pox.
and the six feet under theme? so pretty.
but really i should be writing stuff up for exploring technoculture... i've procrastinated so much, i drove down to the airport to pick up a registered package... MY BRITISH PASSPORT!, visited nick at work, came home and made pizza bases... and then chocolate brownies [with pecans and choc chips]...
pipstar @ 10:50 PM | link | Comments:
may 15, 2002
about this site
well, market-o-matic saves me the energy...
Work of Post-Art in the Age of Symbiotic Reproduction
The mind creates, the body accentuates. In the synaptic space, art objects are resurrections of the musings of the mind -- a mind that uses the body as an organism to represent ideas, patterns, and emotions. With the rationalization of the electronic environment, the mind is conceiving a point where it will be free from the body to consume immersions into the contortions of the delphic space. Work of Post-Art in the Age of Symbiotic Reproduction contains 10 minimal dhtml engines (also refered to as "memes") that enable the user to make red audio/visual compositions.
measuring chains, constructing realities
putting into place forms
a matrix of illusion and disillusion
a strange attracting force
so that a seduced reality will be able to spontaneously feed on it
Pippa Buchanan's work investigates the nuances of pixels through the use of jumpcut motion and close-ups which emphasize the Symbiotic nature of digital media. Buchanan explores abstract and dizzy scenery as motifs to describe the idea of hyper-real space. Using musical loops, non-linear narratives, and allegorical images as patterns, Buchanan creates meditative environments which suggest the expansion of culture...
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pipstar @ 02:29 AM | link | Comments:
may 15, 2002
i spelt your name out on my license plate
i realised that i haven't got a particularly good about page up at the moment. it needs some rewriting and additions and actual explanations of who i am.
but i recognise that i would be procrastinating in a pretty major way if i started on that project.
especially considering the huge exploring technoculture assignment that lue and i need to babble out by friday. and that i also have large amounts of phping to do for ismre and ecommerce technology (thankfully, those are both group assignments).
and then the very major project... looking for stuff to put in aidan's amazing birthday present package.
:::...
after a year of hesitant driving and hoping that there won't be any rain and $360, i've finally had new tyres put on my car. which is a good thing, because they were very very worn.
while i was waiting for the tyres to be put on at kmart, i walked over to magill road and went to the save the children and salvation army op shops.
- henry miller - tropic of cancer (50c)
- john birmingham - the tasmanian babes fiasco ($1.50)
- and a david bridie promo cd ($2)
and then completely unplanned, mum drove past and picked me up and we did some errands and then we bought some folding scissors for my amazing bag of travel stuff. $2.25!
pipstar @ 01:58 AM | link | Comments:
may 15, 2002
latex is not a toy
apparently you're not meant to be able to blow up water bombs.
they're meant for water.
but if water bombs are meant for water and condoms are meant for semen, how come you can blow up a condom? and use one as a container for sterile water in survival situations?
and if rubber gloves are meant for hands, how come you can make an inflatable chicken thing when you blow into it?
pipstar @ 01:35 AM | link | Comments:
may 14, 2002
ventolin
surely a relatively healthy 22 year old should be able to blow up a water bomb without much hassle?
because i can't.
:::...
but i can get a normal balloon sized balloon to inflate.
i just don't get it.
pipstar @ 03:33 AM | link | Comments: *
may 14, 2002
chemprofen
i can't stand period pain. it makes me feel nauseous.
but i appreciate having my period. i figure that it's a sign that my insides are working, that i'm not pregnant, that i'm a woman... yada yada.
pipstar @ 03:29 AM | link | Comments:
may 13, 2002
ew grossmeout
this is a pretty freaky party food idea... but it makes halloween actually seem like a good idea
pipstar @ 04:19 PM | link | Comments:
may 13, 2002
supermarketing
i wrote 230 words... and then
i put up the general instructions for the marinated feta that lue likes.
and i'm wondering about the pair of boots that i'm going to take away with me.
because they should be black and comfortable. and not look too bad with a skirt (ie not make me look fat)
and i should get them soon so that i can wear them in.
buying shoes is hard enough, but add in functionality considerations to the tricky design considerations... it's just too much to think about.
pipstar @ 03:01 AM | link | Comments:
may 13, 2002
she's alright
check out J1 and J2 on pete's page the colours and shapes are very japanese. like flowers on kimono fabric and chinese dragons.
[damn new buffalo are good... about last night is still my favourite cd purchase of the year]
i'll just save this link for a while down the track... the militant breastfeeding cult (from glitterkitty)
... and i have some good ideas of stuff to put into a bday package for aidan ...
but at the moment they are supersecretsquirrel ideas!
pipstar @ 01:55 AM | link | Comments:
may 13, 2002
well, i try to never break a promise.
i'm really meant to be writing 500 words on online communities to then hand on to luella for our amazingly procrastinated pair assignment.
but silly me, i had two glasses of wine with dinner and now i'm feeling tired.
so i think that a cup of tea is in order.
while i'm off brewing that, you might want to check out the new design that i made for aidan's website.
and then think about the glory which is The Groovy CD collection. a selection of ripped and downloaded music by peter...
pipstar @ 12:45 AM | link | Comments:
may 12, 2002
and what i'm really trying to say
on thursday night i had the worst, realest dream that i have ever had.
i'd just been reading the joy luck club by amy tan. one of the mothers in the book told the story of how her family had all died when their house was bombed.
and i heard an aeroplane overhead and i got up out of bed and started beating my fists against the door. "wake up, we're all going to die" and then i realised that this wasn't the room in my dream that i was beating the wall in my real bedroom.
and then i went to the bathroom and physically shook while i sat on the toilet.
i have never woken up from a dream so suddenly. i have never moved out of my bed.
i'm still freaked out by the dream. i could hear and feel the aeroplane.
and then last night i saw the second half of warriors. and i just don't understand why and how people will hurt other people.
pipstar @ 02:34 AM | link | Comments: *
may 12, 2002
i reckon...
that when aidan and i are on the phone we end up spending more time talking about what we should be talking about than actually talking about it.
that one day i'll learn how to use a welder and i'll make a bookshelf like the one that an ex-boyfriend of mum's made for her when he learnt to weld.
that the royal tenenbaum's was good. but i want to see it again before i say anymore. (i like the pictures on the wall of richie's room)
that lue and i should really get together over the phone and do our exploring technoculture assignment.
that before i go overseas, the girls and i should go on a road trip to melbourne to see lue and amanda. and i think lex might be back by then.
that suicide bombers must be very depressed. bombing them and sending tanks into the west bank must make them feel worse.
that my mum makes a damn fine curry.
pipstar @ 02:10 AM | link | Comments:
may 12, 2002
not really much of a surprise
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Low |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | High |
| Antisocial: | Low |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | Moderate |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | Moderate |
| Dependent: | Low |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Low |
-- Click Here To Take The Test -- | |
pipstar @ 02:01 AM | link | Comments: *
may 09, 2002
of course i'm happy
yay for michael chabon!
not only is there an amazing midget radio comics cover on his website... but his first childrens' book is coming out soon!
summerland will be out in october, and chabon namechecks susan cooper in describing the style of the book.
pipstar @ 02:38 AM | link | Comments:
may 08, 2002
please jess. we don't like it when you sing.
this year's big brother has got me quite worked up.
i'm glad that aaron was evicted, he'd be incredibly hard to live with and i didn't really find him that interesting. but he did make the point (on the eviction special and rove) that he was sticking to his guns, while there was a lot of fakeness in the house. [jess! shannon! (hopefull jess will go this week!)]
and then there's the turkan thing. i can understand that she doesn't want to play anymore and that she misses her family and friends. but she's one of the realest people on the show for admitting that!
if she stays after tomorrow, i think that there's a big chance that she might stay in 'til the end.
pipstar @ 02:38 AM | link | Comments: *
may 05, 2002
where i get all sex and the city like
i figure that by going places by myself i'm getting into practice for being in completely different countries by myself. it's a good theory, but a kinda scary one.
meeting new people means relying on your present state of self. there's no history there. often no shared acquaintances. you end up talking about inane, everyday things. shoes for instance. or hats. or the price of cheese. or how public service human resources is a really interesting area to work in.
yeah right.
and i often feel like i am the one who ends up carrying conversations along. maybe the other people just don't care enough. [or they might quite reasonably be shy or be equally unprepared to talk to new people.]
and if people just don't care enough to carry along a conversation, maybe it's a good idea to finish the conversation there and then?
which brings me to the point that i'm trying to make. once you've met a new person and you like them and you want to be friends with them... what are you meant to do?
i was discussing this with karah the other day. i find it completely easy to approach a boy i have a romantic interest in and to then initiate conversations and then make plans.
for instance "hi aidan, please walk me to the bus... i'm having friends around tonight, would you like to come over?" and the rest as they say is history.
but actual just friends friends. initiating that relationship freaks me out completely. what am i meant to do once a potential hanging out buddy has given me their phone number?
is there such a thing as a Friend First Date?
what are you meant to do? it completely freaks me out. i've met some great people this year and i've got their phone numbers and everything... but i don't know how to take the next step.
possibly society and a subscription to dolly when i was 14 have prepared me for how to read "boy signs". but what about "friend signs"?
if this was really sex and the city and i was carrie, i'd have a conclusion / moral to the theme which i'd write here.
unfortunately this week has not been condensed into half an hour. the conclusion hasn't been reached and the moral hasn't been learnt...
once i know i have friends i'm ok. though even once i know someone well i'm not really one for initiating fun things to do.
maybe this is my big challenge? i know a boy (i don't have him at the moment - a distance thing) that i would like to be with again. so i don't really need my "meeting new boy skills" anymore.
maybe i should apply my cheesy smile and questionable [and odd] sense of humour to developing "meeting new friends skills"? and then following up contact with potential new friends skills?
pipstar @ 02:39 AM | link | Comments:
may 04, 2002
snot
i hate having a cold.
i can't taste anything. i can't breathe properly when i'm trying to get to sleep. i don't feel energetic enough to do yoga or to go for a walk when i cough i sound like a rare variety of sea lion.
and my nose is all sore and dry from being blown all the time.
but it meant that i was prepared with tissues in my pocket while i was watching sliding doors.
what can i say. it's a romantic comedy. where no-one actually ends up happy. but i love it.
:::...
so um. yeah.
lately i've been blowing my nose a lot. and i've also been taking sudafed to try and reduce the pressure in my head. which means that i'm completely vacant.
and i went to do the test for information systems and re-engineering on thursday and i think i'll be lucky if i pass. which is saying something considering it was multiple choice. i just didn't care. but i figure that i'll go okay in the exam if i actually read the textbook.
and i haven't even been reading any particular book.
all i can think about is packing my backpack and going to europe.
so i write more and more lists.
:::...
and now it's 2.01am.
time flies when you are doing absolutely nothing.
- i want to wake up tomorrow and
- look at the rug sale in town (the same sydney business where i bought my 21st bday present rug from) not that i need to spend $300+ on a rug which i don't have floor space for. but there might be something beautiful there...
- buy mum a mothers' day present and dad his birthday present
- buy and organise pete's birthday present (i was just going to give him some haighs chocolate but i had a good idea!)
- maybe buy a new el cheapo canvas and attempt passionfruit painting #2.
- 2nd hand book shopping at the oxfam store!
- op-shopping in general!
- lazy - at - least - i'm - doing - some yoga
pipstar @ 03:26 AM | link | Comments:
may 03, 2002
black
i found a recipe for syllabub.
and it's dark outside.
more to come later...
pipstar @ 07:42 PM | link | Comments:
may 02, 2002
do we get to eat cake?
i'm shocked by some news that karah emailed me. i think that i'll have to let it sink in for a while.
apparently saul is getting married to a girl he met in turkey years ago. in the meantime he's broken up with his most recent girlfriend, gone back to turkey and asked her to marry him.
freak me out.
pipstar @ 01:35 AM | link | Comments:
may 02, 2002
a vampire with a soul
while he was just a character on buffy, angel really pissed me off. the moodiness, the hair, the not liking spike thing.
but as the quality of buffy episodes goes down (especially the musical episode... i couldn't stand it!), i've grown to like angel more and more.
for example, angel is way more appealing. he smiles and even cracks jokes now and then.
wesley and gun are pretty cool. fred is a bit annoying though.
and cordelia's character has grown and become stronger, more interesting and even funnier.
lets just face it, buffy needs to be discontinued after this series. and angel needs to grow.
pipstar @ 01:26 AM | link | Comments:
may 01, 2002
society is driving me to this
if i have to do uni and work...
the art of information architecture
what is an information architect?
becoming an information architect
usability
usability jakob neilsen
pipstar @ 01:37 PM | link | Comments:
may 01, 2002
lineoutofhere
i end up with 50% for an assignment because i believe that marthastewart.com is not a portal?
sure i didn't really discuss portals in general. but i did say that mso was using a buisiness to consumer model on the website.
i really don't care about uni anymore. i want to be away doing things i've never done before. i want to have an exciting reason to wake up in the morning.
if i have to have a job, i want to be doing something that i love doing, where i get to interact with interesting people and get to produce something i feel proud of.
but quite frankly, i don't want a job at the moment. because i won't be doing something that i love. i'll be doing data entry or working on large systems which will end up being full of bugs because the intention is to make a new product, not to improve something currently in use.
i really should be singing or gardening or taking photographs or making people feel better about themselves.
if sark and keri smith can do it, so can i.
i should be doing what i love. and at the moment work and uni are definitely not what i love.
pipstar @ 01:31 PM | link | Comments:
may 01, 2002
oh.
i've worked out why i haven't done any reading for information systems and re-engineering.
(apart from a tendancy towards laziness and the minimum amount of work possible)
i haven't actually bought the book. whoops.
so my intention for tomorrow is to print up the lecture notes and possibly buy the book, as i figure that i'll need it for the exam anyway. and to actually turn up at uni in the first place.
:::...
i chose to miss out on yoga this morning, but that didn't stop me from hanging out with karah at the central markets. we wandered around, complained / praised various boys' behaviour (they know who they are.).
we managed to waste time in the most effective time wasting way. and we purchased lovely, cheap and fun items on our wandering. karah bought two "i love james" badges for $1. and i found a travel pillow for $3.20!
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